Part One Chapter One

It is April 4th 1994 and I have done an unbearable mistake that will surely result in my sheer defeat. I am over nor rid with the order of Big Brother and decided it best to be done, DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER, over and over til the page was half written. Deep down I know this is all sick and beyond cruel, and yet it is impossible to fix, adapt to, at least on my behalf. Everything is but a sharp pain of abstinence for normality. The longing is stiff and has a life of its own, nowhere near the one I am currently in. Perhaps not everyone is not brainwashed at least not now, and feels the same as I do discretely.